How Can a Weakness Be So Strong??

I admit it.  My weakness is food.  It's a comfort thing, a joyful thing, a celebratory thing.

Yet, I feel like I'm a strong person.  I am a planner and have been called "anal" more times than I could count (if I only had a dollar ...).  So how come this weakness is so freaking strong???

I'm great for most of the day.  I'm a morning person so there is no issue in the morning to get my vitamins down, eat right, drink water, exercise.  All that's easy in the morning.  I'm even great through lunch and afternoon snack time.  It's all planned out.

But when I get to dinner, I can't control myself.  I can't eat something different than the rest of the family - I've tried that.  So then I tried making healthy meals.  Okay, that's a great idea unless you can't stop with the helpings or keep the portions under control.

"It's healthy - I can eat more of it!"  Right?  Wrong.

This holiday season doesn't help.  It starts in September with football.  I make football food every Saturday.  Then, Halloween comes with its candy and treats.  Then came our yearly family BBQ, then Thanksgiving, and now it's the Christmas season with all the cookies, treats and sweets.  I expected to gain some, but I thought I could control it to some degree.  But no.

I don't see how a strong person can have such a weakness.  And I don't see how a weakness can kick my butt and leave me drooling on the floor.  It's supposed to be weak!

I'm already resigned to the rest of this year being a total loss.  Well, gain.

I'm already planning January and my exercise schedule.

It's very frustrating!  I guess I'll see you all in January!