Time.

That's what I've never allowed myself before, and I believe that is why I've failed all the prior attempts to lose weight.  I have never been selfish enough to spend time on my health.  And that's what it takes.  Active time.

I swear the difference is having that bike in our room.  It's so easy to roll out of bed, throw on exercise clothes and jump on the bike.  It's made all the difference.  Even to the point that I can make myself get up earlier to actually ride the bike.  Now I'm thinking, maybe an extra fifteen minutes earlier and I can do the bowflex right after I ride.  Get all the exercise done.  In fact, maybe thirty minutes earlier and I can take a shower when I'm done and be ready to face the day before the kids even get up!  Of course, I'd have to get up at like 3:00 a.m. to do all I'd like to do before the kids get up, and I just don't think I can do that.

Am listening to the subliminal weight loss cd each night.  Hubby likes it.  I'm not really noticing a change in my eating habits, but I don't know what the subliminal messages in it are, so I can't really say if it's working. It will take time to work anyway.

There's that word again.  Time.  Making time for me to workout.  Allowing time for it all to work.  Time's a pretty important concept in the weight loss arena. 

I'm working on the protein thing too.  Since I rode the bike and weight lifted today, I ate an egg with ham and cheese in it this morning.  Since I microwaved it ,there was no oil or butter in the making of it and it was very satisfying and filling.  Drank my 2% milk (which is really my splurge item) and with all that, it was 262 calories and 13.5 grams of fat.  If it keeps me going, then it will be worth it, and I got a double whammy of protein to feed my muscles.

I also took some Advocare catalyst, which is supposed to help muscles hold their mass while allowing the fat to come off.  I hope to remember to take my fibotrim each night.  And I still want to do the spark thing - I think I need to make a bunch and keep it in the refrigerator so it's always ready for me. 

I'm pretty proud of myself today for some reason.  And it might all have to do with eating a real breakfast.  Usually I have a milk drink, which is good in that it provides lots of vitamins and minerals and is a decent calorie and fat amount (plus it's chocolate - how awesome is that??) but I think it's not high enough in protein to support my morning exercises and that might be why I crash at 2-ish every day.

For whatever reason, I feel good about myself today.  Maybe it's the taking action thing.  Actually doing something after just "wishing" for it all these years. 



At the moment, I'm disciplined.  I can't worry about tomorrow.  I just need to focus on today and make it through and be proud of what I've done today.