Thursday, January 29, 2015

Hovering

I can't seem to get serious about this weight loss thing this time.  I'm not gaining, but I'm not losing either - just hovering.

It's been a rough month, though that feels like an excuse.  And I guess it is.  Hubby has been gone most of the month for trade shows and it's just hard without him here.  I don't know how single moms do it - they have my utmost respect.

At any rate, I've been weak at times and ordered out when it was "easier" to do so.  It makes me ashamed of myself.

I just don't have that focus right now.  I've got to get back on track.  At least I haven't yo-yo-ed up.  I suppose there is something to be said for maintaining.

I think what will really do it is getting back to consistent bike riding again.  Once I get back into that habit, I think I'll feel better all the way around.

I just feel "meh" right now.  Tired even when I wake up in the morning.  I felt pretty good yesterday and because I felt good, I ate right and I lost some weight.  But today, I'm very tired.  And I have court today, which always wears me out.  Luckily, I've planned an easy dinner - Italian Wedding soup.  It's tasty and fast and low calorie.  Out of the can so I can't be "too tired" tonight to make it.

I just wanted to check in since I haven't written in a while.  Nothing to say since I have nothing much going on weight-wise.

At some point I'll kick myself into gear.  Just got to get myself there.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

So Hungry!

So, I guess my body has gotten used to eating goodies all holiday season.  Now that I'm eating "right" again, my body is saying, "What the heck??!  Where's the FOOD?!"

I was so hungry yesterday!  I managed to eat small snacks - some popcorn, some almonds, a small can of tuna (only 90 calories!) but I still felt hungry ALL DAY.  That's one of the bad things about working from home - the kitchen is right upstairs ...

At any rate, I still lost weight last night.  I just wonder what the loss would have been if I hadn't snacked all day.

Today I will try better.  I did not ride the bike this morning, though.  With the cold weather, I had to make sure I drove the kids to the bus stops this morning so my schedule was whacked.  However, I have decided I will try and work out on the bowflex this afternoon - I'm needing to start back on the strength training so maybe that will make me feel better about not riding this morning.  That's if I can get my files ready for court for tomorrow and Monday.  But I will make a vigorous attempt!

My new aria scale also measures my body fat, which, frankly, is not a very pleasant number to wake up to each morning.  But that was down this morning, too.  Not by much, of course, but any downward movement makes me feel like I've accomplished something.  Like the starving yesterday was actually worth it.

I know this phase will pass.  I remember being hungry before.  My body just has to get used to having normal sized portions again of healthy food.  I'll get there.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

It's a New Year

In some ways I am so thankful the holidays are over!

The kids are all back in school and things are returning to a routine.  I rode the bike this morning - though could only do 28 minutes.  I guess I have to work back up to the hour + that I used to do.  It felt so good to be back on track.

I've got my weekly chart ready to log in and am journaling my food and activities.  I got a new fitbit aria scale for Christmas and it's already logging my weight and body fat each morning.  I had my daughter help me yesterday with my measurements so I can keep track.  I also have the meals for the next two weeks planned out and I made breakfast muffin-omelets for the whole week for my two younger ones and myself and froze them.  Those should provide us all with good protein and should be much healthier than the store bought breakfast things we normally do.  It was a lot of hard work getting it all done, wrapped and in the freezer, but I'm hoping it will be worth it!

I wonder what it is about a new year that makes us all so gung-ho again.  It's like as the clock ticked past midnight on the 31st, I somehow became rejuvenated and ready to start fresh again.  Happens every year.  It would be nice to have that happen throughout the year, but I'm not sure how to get that excited feeling of DOING something and MOVING FORWARD at any time other than the new year.

I did a lot of planning over the holidays and have a new 2015 year planner which is broken down by month.  I'm hoping to get a lot of cleaning done this winter and if I don't plan things in, they don't get done.

I'm feeling hopeful again!  I am going to take things one day at a time and see where it takes me.  It would be nice to have lost a good chunk of weight by our 30th wedding anniversary.  I'll definitely work on it!

Hope you all had a wonderful holiday season and are ready to get back on track as well!