Mind Control.

I'm working on my attitude this week.  I've been in a defeatist mindset.  That needs to change.

I'm digging in this week and am going to work really hard.  No excuses.

I rode the bike for 61 minutes this morning.  I've already printed out my weekly mini-goal/logging booklet and I WILL log in all my food and try and check off all my "to do"s.

I'm not going to worry about the weight I haven't lost or the back pain or the flu that set me back.  I'm kicking my mental butt into gear and moving forward!

I'm tired of how I look and how I feel, and I can't complain about it unless I'm willing to work on it and DO something.

It's going to be a good week.

Think Fit!!

Back in (semi) Motion

I rode the bike this morning!  It was uncomfortable on my back, but it didn't actually HURT, so I kept on going!  Rode for 58 minutes, so I feel pretty good about that.  FINALLY!  I can move again!

Now I just have to be careful not to overdo it.  I've made my menu for the week and things seem to be planned out fairly well.  I just need to control the portion size (as always!! One of my downfalls!).

I have no court this week or next, so can do some serious catching up on all my work.  It's a good feeling to strike things off the to-do list!

I am feeling much better today than I have in a while.  I had just hit one of those "down in the dumps" modes and I guess I was feeling sorry for myself with my back issue and the nasty flu that had knocked me down.

I'm bouncing back again - just like one of those punching dolls.  Not a bad comparison, actually, lol.

My challenge in the next two weeks will be Halloween - I always cook a feast of "scary" food and the neighborhood kids come and feast before going out to trick or treat.  And then there's the candy that will be in the house.  Right now I feel I could resist anything, but come around 8:00 at night and that candy sure is going to look tasty.

Still, that's not a horrible challenge to face and try to overcome.  No court, so no stress eating.  Of course, that doesn't mean there won't be some kind of stress popping up to make me want my comfort food, but nothing I can foresee at the moment.

I'll take it a day at a time! It's the only way to manage myself at this point!

Anyway, wanted to report that I'm back to exercising - at least on the bike.  I'm not sure I'm up to lifting weights yet.  One step at a time!

Back Pain

I just can't seem to get a break.  I was finally feeling so much better and we began decorating for Halloween on Sunday.  I bent over (not lifting or anything) and my lower back went out.  Not even sure what I did!  I just know it really hurts!  So I haven't been able to exercise since then.  I can barely sit in a chair much less do anything strenuous.  It is feeling slightly better, so I"m hopeful it will heal soon.

I sure do hate getting old.

I read a blog the other day that has me a bit down.  She commented that she was having issues herself on the weight loss front and that it always made her feel bad to read all these blogs that talk about what their new plans are for losing weight and how when she reads them she knows they are going to fail.

It took me aback.  Do people read my blog and thing I'm going to fail?  That all my struggles that I put out here are just a waste of time? AM I going to fail?  Am I doomed to?  Is that how this comes across?

I guess I'm a bit down myself given the flu and then the back, and maybe that's why that comment hit me so hard.  Because I had thought I was putting up the good fight.  Getting up when I fall down and all that.  But I"m looking at the scale and maybe that woman was right.  I lost 24 lbs last year.  I gained some back so that now the total lost is 20 lbs.  So I haven't lost ANYTHING this year (well, overall I have - I re-lost what I had gained back) but I haven't gotten even back to where I had lost last year.

I guess I'm just frustrated.

I look at all the issues I'm having and they sure do look a lot like excuses.

All I can do is keep trying.  I can't think of this as a waste of time or energy.  How can exercise and eating right be a waste of time even if I'm holding steady?  At least I'm not gaining.  And any exercise is good, right?

So, I just have to get through my latest snag and rest a bit until my back is ... well, back.

Hopefully my back injury won't cause me to add back weight.  I'll do my best to eat better and a lot less since I can't exercise to offset it.

I'll get through this.  Maybe.

Stomach Flu.

Not the way I'd like to lose weight, but I am down a bit after a week and a half of flu ...

It might actually have been food poisoning, but, it might also have been the flu.  I'm finally feeling much more human.  My stomach still isn't quite right, but I'm much, much better.


So, I lost a few pounds, but I'm sure as I resume healthy eating again, it will go back up again.  I will try and keep my portions under control.

Football season is hard.  And pumpkin beer is back!  How do I resist that??

At any rate, I am charting my weight, logging my exercise, logging my food.  These are all good things.  I just have to figure out how to keep myself on track.  How do I make myself remember what I'm aiming for??  Somehow I need to find a way.

It seems at 8:00 at night, that picture of skinny jeans just isn't as sweet as that cookie ... I wish I could find some magic button to keep my willpower on full.

I am trying a new Advocare product called Leptilean.  It is supposed to help control appetite so I plan on taking it around 4:00 p.m. and we'll see if it helps me into the evening.

As always, I will keep you posted!